I feel like... I feel like I've been coming on this site for the past two weeks more out of obligation than for fun. And - most of the time - I actually DO have fun on this site... There are so many characters on here that I love, and there are so many storylines that I want to tell... But we just don't GEL anymore.
It's come to the point now where I barely like any of you, and what's the point of sharing my characters... my storylines... with people that I don't really like anymore? And it's not like you're HORRIBLE people... You're all really good, really decent guys... It's just that there are certain, particular, completely random things that really bother me about your storytelling, and... I just... I can't deal with it anymore.
And I know I have my flaws, too. I know I criticize you guys too much; I know I'm a bitch; I know I have an ego that's too large to fit on this planet. I know that all of my characters essentially have the same dialogue, and I know that I'm a bit too obsessed with characters being even VAGUELY Goth or emo in any way, shape or form. I know that I rant. A lot.
First of all, it is like PULLING EFFING TEETH to get ANY of you to colloborate on planning... or even to get your EFFING OPINIONS. I mean, there's an effing reason that I have this forum. I WANT TO EFFING KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS THINK, BUT YOU NEVER EFFING TELL ME.
And - JESUS - we have more CLOSED RPGs than we have OPENED ones... If you want to roleplay something, then DO IT. DON'T EFFING SIT AROUND AND WAIT FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO POST SOMETHING. WHEN YOU TAKE CONTROL OF A STORYLINE, MOVE IT ALONG, OR PASS IT ON TO SOMEONE ELSE.
So this is my resignation, *******s. You can do whatever the eff you want to do with the site. Let it die. Blow it up. Whatever. I don't give a damn. I don't care. Pdub gets all of the administrative abilities. Sam and Cole get theirs taken away. Not like they used 'em, anyways.
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"A story has to be finished, and no matter how distracted you get, you need to force yourself to forge ahead, word by word. If your idea is boring though, and that's why you're easy to distract...well, that's a really fantastic reason for not being able to focus on the task at hand! In that case, head back to the drawing board. And again, don't give up!"- Marjorie Liu, NYX: No Way Home interview
"Really? That's INANE. Most people in life don't HAVE great power, and the few that do are almost NEVER responsible with it. The people who have the greatest responsibility are the kids with NO POWER because we're the ones who have to keep everybody else in check."- Gertrude Yorkes, Runaways (vol. 2) #11
Also if you have something to say...SAY IT TO ME dont hide behind your words and say "this is directed to everyone"
if you have a problem with me say it, im not gonna cry, im 17 ill get over it. Youre not gonna hurt anyones feelings
Also you claim we do not do what you want, but you never actually go to the sources. If you think i am not posting enough....THEN SAY IT that works a hell of a lot better then sitting in front of your computer getting mad at people who dont post
"WHEN YOU TAKE CONTROL OF A STORYLINE, MOVE IT ALONG, OR PASS IT ON TO SOMEONE ELSE." i feel this was geared directly at me...if you had a problem with me and the Fantasy RPG, then you should have said something
you resigning doesnt surprise me at all, because when things dont go your way or ppl dont do what you want you ban them or you just quit so youve just proven me right.
Most of our RPG's are closed because they become stale this is how it always is for everything on Earth....too much of a good thing and all. You need to just keep moving along
Another point.....WE DONT LIVE AT OUR COMPUTER DESKS......nobody on here, including you is on the computer all the time.....people have just started school, many of us are about to start it.....so you getting mad because someone doesnt post, even if they have birthdyas, deaths in the family, vacations and other occurences. It just seems that if we dont post everyday...you get pissed, 3 years ago is different from now
Go ahead and take away my "priveleges" because they were practically non-existent....i had them for about 2 months and i fought to get ppl back....which i did, then you came back so pretty much they went to you solely....now that youve run away...again, you given them to someone else...is that supposed to hurt my feelings, cuz it really doesnt...it just shows how spiteful you are for no real reason
Ive been all nice and polite to everyone during this whole experience but now im pissed beyond belief that you would desert this forum...a second time. There are ppl here who actually want to be here (myself included) and you leaving just hinders the progress of the forum, but you probably dont care because its not directly about you...it always has to be about you.. WELL WAKE UP AND WELCOME PRINCESS there are other ppl here, all of which i believe are willing to cooperate with you if you just speak one-on-one with them rather than your bull **** "everyone" post, because when you say that ppl assume its not about them
I will continue to be a dedicated member of this forum....cuz unlike almost all of the members I ****ING STUCK AROUND THROUGH IT ALL, I NEVER LEFT
you may think youre a bitch, but believe me...ive yet to reveal the true Sam
Okay, Sam... That was totally what I needed. So thank you for the slap in the face... Yeah...
My biggest problem - which you pointed out - is that I always have to have MY way... MY way is the right way, and all of your ways are wrong. Blah, blah, blah... I'm a spoiled, 16-year-old girl. Whatever.
I'm not going to make up excuses. I'm not going to go all, "Oh yeah... I was on my period." I was being rude, etcetera, etcetera. Roll the credits.
I am still leaving. I don't have a good, solid, LEGITIMATE reason to do so, but I am. There's just... I dunno. Like I said, the past two weeks, I've felt like I've been coming here out of obligation, rather than for fun... The thing with this site... is that I want to tell stories, and I can't control how any of you react to the EVENTS in the story.... I don't have any control over you or your characters, and that's what pisses me off, I think. I want full control over my fictional worlds, and I can't have that here, obviously. It's like (and this isn't meant to be picking on you, Eric) with Maria, I wanted to be kind of SUBTLE with the hints I was giving that she wasn't - exactly - ALIVE, but the second she says, "You can't kill a ghost", Eric just jumps right off and goes, "YOU'RE NOT REALLY ALIVE?!?!" Little things like that. And if I TELL you guys how to react... Well, then that takes away the essence of ROLEPLAYING, doesn't it? So yeah. I'm leaving for completely selfish reasons.
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"A story has to be finished, and no matter how distracted you get, you need to force yourself to forge ahead, word by word. If your idea is boring though, and that's why you're easy to distract...well, that's a really fantastic reason for not being able to focus on the task at hand! In that case, head back to the drawing board. And again, don't give up!"- Marjorie Liu, NYX: No Way Home interview
"Really? That's INANE. Most people in life don't HAVE great power, and the few that do are almost NEVER responsible with it. The people who have the greatest responsibility are the kids with NO POWER because we're the ones who have to keep everybody else in check."- Gertrude Yorkes, Runaways (vol. 2) #11
